the pressure is getting on me. i'm not one who likes to talk. but yeah i talk when i'm wif close gd frens. yeah i noe i'm not talking to you. basically i'm juz ignoring u. dun ask me why. i do no know the reason behing it. i just feel like not talking to you. i feel as if i am putting on another mask when i talk. not only to you. everyone else. unless it's someone who really knows me well. i don't know why. i feel bad. but i cant help it. everyone says i shld i just stop giving in. stop helping others. stop putting others before self. i know, for myself, i should just do that. but i cant. in a dilemna.